Believing...

So, I watched part of Polar Express with my mom tonight, and the basic moral of the movie is to believe. For those of you who do not know Polar Express is baout a kid who does not believe in Santa, and how he goes on this fantasy journey where he ends up in the North Pole. Sometimes I think that we as Christians want those kind of experiences. I am talking about the kind of experiences where you basically finally get it. I am not saying that there is anything wrong with those experiences, but I do not think that it all comes down getting everything all at once. I have definitely found out the hard way that it takes a lot of learning and experiences to get anything.

Heart Issues...

So, soemthing that has been on my heart for a long time is that since I have begun my walk with Christ I have left some of my friends behind. In particular one friend of mine. Her name is Kim and I seriously love that girl so much. She was closer to me than almost anyone else. But once I started going to church I had to make some decisions that would help me in my walk. One of which was to leave some of my friend that were bad influences behind. She was not a bad influence, but when Ileft the bad influences behind I started spending a lot of time at church. Eventually I spent almost all my time at church. Which meant Kim was being ignored. Right now Kim is doing drugs, from weed to X, and drinking alot. I have always felt it was my fault not being there for her when some bad things went down. The worse thing is that there was someone else there to catch the pieces, not a good somebody. Tonight I talked to someone else that I left behind and was not a good friend too after she had always been so loyal and good to me, and she told me straight out that if i would have stayed around she would have not ended up this way. Right now my question is "Is it worth it?" to live this life and hurt those who love and need you in thier lives. The answer of course is "YES". There is no other life, but sometimes coming being libing most of my life in the world and of it, it is really hard to live in it and not of it. Right now my mind is swimming with regrets, which sucks cause my phrase in life is never regret but don't forget.

A new saying I learned this weekend is:
"The past is history, the future a mystery, and today is a gift. That is why it is called the present"

One Change Leads to Another...

So, something that I have noticed about people, especially on campus lately, that when people change their relationship status something else changes too. It has just been getting on my nerves that when some people get in a relationship they think that it fixes all of their problems. Since they think that they feel like they need to spend almost every free moment with that person. This just really upsets me, especially when college is supposed to be the time where you build friendships. I just do not realize why people do this. If anyone has any understanding of this I would appreciate it.

T.D. Jakes...

Just Watch....

Balance...

So, I have always known that when you have balance in your life you will be more efficient and joyful. Lately however, I have forgotten how important this can be. Yesterday i gave all of my stress and worries up to God and after this He blessed me with peace. This morning I woke up fully rested and ready to praise God. That is something that I wish I could do everyday. I plan on training myself to do so. Part of my training is waking up at six O'clock in the morning to pray. I just want to state the reasons that I am doing this seemingly insane task. First of all, The time that Jesus prayed the most was early in the morning before the sun rose. When I am getting up I am not praying by myself, I am praying with a couple other people. This is because in Acts the most common kind of prayer is corporate prayer. I think that this is something that is necessary, because it addresses two of the biggest problems on campus. The first is lack of community. I have spoken with several people on campus who feel that the feeling of community has dropped dramatically since the closing of The Hole. The other is the lack of prayer on campus. I just feel like the feeling of urgency of prayer is dramatically lower than it should be in a school full of people who love God. I am not trying to insult anyone. If you are offended in any way by what I have said then I am sorry but it is the truth. There is so many things that need improvement. I am also not saying that we all suck at life. There are so many amazing qualities of the people on campus that makes this campus an amazing place to be.

A song that I have loved since the first time i heard it is...