So I used to think that once I wanted to just be content it would be easy to attain. I do not know why I thought this, because it has been one of the hardest things I have ever tried to do. Lately I have been doing things that remind me of how I used to be before Jesus found me. Once I realized this I tried to turn it back around and realized that it was harder to turn from it now that I have been saved for a while than when I was first saved. I realize now that I have not been trying as hard as I could have. Once I reached a place where I could feel comfortable again I felt like I was being pulled down again. This is when I realized that God wants us to be content in every situation. So this is when I started to strive not for happiness but for contentment. When you are living in a world that is messed up as the one we are living in, where every thing in life is being manipulated by the media and we are constantly being told that we are not good enough and we need things to make us better and we need them NOW, it is hard to be ok with yourself and the situations that you are in that are not ideal. I know that discipline plays a big part in the journey to contentment. And spiritual discipline is something that I need to work on.
On the lighter side here is a video that makes me laugh.This video was shown to me by my wonderful sister Sarah Lang. Who I love so much.
Monday, October 27, 2008
Monday, October 13, 2008
So I did the right thing today, and apologized to someone I was a jerk to. After I talked with her I was finally able to focus on the homework that I have recently not been able to focus on. However, have you ever had one of those moments when you know you should have brought a conversation in another way. Well I should have continued this conversation towards concerns that I had.
Saturday, October 11, 2008
So lately i feel like sometimes I feel like I can be a jerk. When I told somebody this the first thing they told me was that everyone is a jerk on some level. I told her that I didn't want to be a jerk, and that I wanted to apologize. They told me that no on is perfect and if I was only apologizing to try and be perfect then I should not do it. I told her that I really wanted to do it because I felt like I had hurt the person I was rude to.
What I am thinking about this right now is why it would be bad to strive for perfection? Are we not called to be like Jesus, who in every sense of the word was perfect. I think I know what she meant by this though. I think that she was trying to tell me if I was trying to appear perfect through my actions than I should stray away, and I would agree with that. I hate it when people do things just so that people will look at them or think they are great or think they are retarded. People should just live their lives as the way God had intended us to live them. With a modest attitude
Thursday, October 9, 2008
Wednesday, October 8, 2008
So I decided to put up my bucket list so far, but remember I am a very corny guy.
- Kiss the girl i love
- Know what it really means to live for Jesus
- Eat at a restaurant in Italy
- Say what is really on my heart
- Stand up publicly for what I believe in
- See Poland
- Have a job I love
- Do something selfless for a total stranger
- Wear an Armoni suit
- Create a dish with Bobby Flay
- Watch a sunrise
- Watch a sunset
- Go to Africa
- Stand on Calvary Hill
- Shoot a gun
- Spend one year in overseas missions
- Kiss my girl while slow dancing
- Be in a huge field of flowers and/or tall grass
- Smoke a pipe
- Paint a Picture
- Be a chef for a day
So, ever since my mom was diagnosed with cancer three years ago I have been thinking more about death. For those of you that do not know my mother was diagnosed with colon cancer Feb of '05. She was treated with chemotherapy and is now rid of it. After watching the movie the Bucket List I have been thinking about the things that I would like to accomplish before I die. With writing them out I have realized that there is a lot of things that I would like to accomplish. I would recommend writing a bucket list it can help you prioritize some things. I am trying to decide whether I want to post my list or not, because it is very corny.